He doesn't interfere in my blog very often. On rare occasions he has asked me not to say something a specific way. Usually something he thinks I will regret later. And he has occasionally told me to post something. But that's rare.He emphasizes that it's my blog.
Yesterday he had me post the email I sent him.
He wanted... what?
I think he wanted you to see a different side of me. I know he feels that even here I choose not to share much of. Alujna said in her comment yesterday that the side I usually show is more professional. This was needier. You were right Alujna.
He wanted you to see past the normally cool analytical description. He wanted you to imagine me crawling. Begging. Wanting that. Asking for more.
He wanted to rip the covers off me and leave me naked and exposed for a day.
I think he wanted was to have my embarrassment of showing that part to you be kind of exciting for me. He wanted me squirming but not curled in a ball in the corner.
I hope it worked!
ReplyDeleteaisha
I think occasional posts like that are fine. Keep the blog the way it is... and do show us your need side some of the time... maybe once a month or so...lol
ReplyDeleteyou can make it needy Wednesday or something like that...lolol :)
take care
and sin it was fine, being exposed isn't such a bad thing when you have someone looking out for you...
I admired you before, but my idea of "sin" was not nearly as three dimensional for me as you became yesterday. I loved the rawness kk spoke about. You have written that you love your Master, and I believed you, but reading the post yesterday, I could feel it. That little peek has "fleshed you out" for me. Added another, beautiful fascinating layer to an already delightful cake.
ReplyDeleteMMMmmmmm.
It's a valid question, sin - the relationship between what we show and the full reality, and applies to everything from newspaper reports to fiction.
ReplyDeleteThe sadist sneers at my "blog fans," as he calls them, thinking their interest is based on a romanticized view of him and our relationship. I admit to using poetic language, but think the facts are fairly presented. Still, it's impossible - and not necessarily our "job" (if we have a job as blog writers) to reveal everything.
As a submissive, I'm not at all surprised by what you revealed. I know what happens to us. I know what gets pulled out of us. What makes it interesting is reading it in context of the way you usually write. A steady diet would probably be too much. I appreciate perspective.
o.g.
i think the big takeaway here is what you revealed is a side... a dimension... but not all of who you are...
ReplyDeletethe fact is, i like the intellectual sin, the sassy, the pissed off, the sad, the smart, the yogi, the strong... and the vulnerable...
and i'm guessing so does MOS... a whole lot.
keep it all comin' sin :)
kk
@KK, he doesn't like the pissed off Sin or the bratty one, but he loves the rest, you are correct.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your comments over the past few days.