So.. Who is the biggest masochist in blog world?
I love the community that blogging forms. It's a network of friends and acquaintences. Each of us who blog are at the centre of our own little group of friends and followers and commenters and people that we read. Lots of the groups overlap of course, a network of social venn diagrams. I do count the followers and commenters who all have positions in that network too, but we know more about the bloggers and their thoughts than the rest of you. Maybe we are the extroverts and you are the introverts?
So you all know that I am a bit of a masochist. Not as much as some, but more than others. Yes SFP I see you waving your hand, I agree, I'm more of a masochist than you are. Nodding.
But where do I fit in the continuum? I think that compared to normal people (What's normal? Who decides this anyway?) I am pretty extreme. But I'm wondering about the rest of you.
So... If I'm a 6 on the masochism scale (bear with me for a minute here guys, I can't be way over on the far right end because there are some people, lots of people, who are way way WAY more extreme than I am. They take way more pain than me, and love it and crave it and rave about it. Yes, I crave and rave too. I admit that I do.
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0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
so.... If I'm a 6 and someone like Kaya is a 10. After all they play crazy rough and wild and he nailed her tits to a board and if I wasn't sick I would find it and link to it for you. (This post should be full of links to people and posts and pics but I'm sick and pathetic so it's not) Oh and he (Kaya's Master) did it cause she wanted it, because she fantasized about it and told him her fantasy... I get that there must be people who like pain more than she does but maybe they are all dead cause they found some crazy chainsaw wielding guy to give it to them. Umm, I think Married Man's FuckToy must be a 10 too?
And maybe SFP is a 2 or a 3, wanting a little taste of it, but not too much. I'm thinking here of the experiment with the elastics on her nipples which she did NOT like, but the fact is that she tried it, wanting it, so that says something doesn't it?
And Nilla is further to the right of me on that scale but not way way further maybe a 7 or an 8? Based on the pictures of the bruises this week and the craving it and raving about it.
So... do you think I have it right? Feel free to move people around as required. And where do you fit? And if you feel like I have misrepresented you, jump in and say so ok?
And some caveats... It all needs to be in the right context right? I mean I don't just love pain for the sake of pain. If I stub my toe or have a toothache or something like that, I don't like that pain. But the right kind of pain, delivered by the right person in the right way, to please him. Ummm, yeah, that I do love!
So where do you fit? Oh and do you think maybe there's a follow up post on where the Doms fit? And how much they like to give?
14 comments:
I am a 4 and moving more to a 5 under Daddy's guidance. I like the pain, and I like the temporary marks, but extreme I am not. If it is inflicted by someone other than Daddy it changes the whole level and puts me at a 1 or 2. I love the fact that Daddy knows me so well.
I had to go and do some homework (aka look at Kaya's blog, have a long hard look in the mirror) before answering this one!
I was just blogging that my threshold of nipple pain are changing - which was the only thing really holding me back in terms of masochism. It's scary to think I'm still drifting across the scale towards the right. I'd say maybe I'm.... 8? Sound fair?
It's hard to pinpoint liking and wanting with pain: during I'm always thinking it was too much, I wanted less - but then when it's over I want more, and wish it had been even harder!
I liked your point in your comment to me that it comes in cycles, and that craving can have to do with how much you are getting at any given time.
Either that I'm doomed to start going out with chainsaw man eventually :P (jokes!!)
Jx
I would put fucktoy at a 10, and move myself back to maybe an 8. She takes way more of the impact stuff than I can take.
Not to mention the ass raping. Cuz... ow.
I'm actually pretty low on the scale, thought - being me - it's hard for me to pin it down. I've always hated those number scales!
On the other hand, I've always loved Venn diagrams.
Part of my problem with pinning it down is that my reaction to the pain is all tied up with my emotions about the situation. Plus Daddy, who is an 11 on the sadist scale, holds back from really hurting me because he is afraid of losing control. I suspect that he could easily though gradually train me to accept a lot more pain without coming apart. If he chose to. But again, he has chosen instead to protect me.
(Somewhere out there, there must be a question to which I can give a one word or one number answer!)
o.g.
I think I would describe myself as a 2 or 3, sometimes maybe a 4(on rare occasions).
Ally
This is wild to read!! coz yanno, if you asked me i'd be a...3? maybe...coz still i'm so new to this pain stuff...what...5 months or less...but now, after Sunday, i'd say you did peg me correctly.
He could have beaten/bitten....whatever to me me...and i loved every *every* minute of it.
Even the super hated fucking silver cake thingy.
He hit my nipples with that, while clamped and i've not mentioned that yet but WHOOOOOOBOY...hurt so fucking good.
i know, me and the fbomb lately.
I love the Venn diagram reference, btw!!
so, yuppers, sin, you have me "pegged" (laughs)
nilla
I love the way your mind works,sin. What a topic! I think I'd have to rebut kaya, though, she's at least a 9 if not the 10 you put her at.
I don't know where I'd fall. My desire for pain falls way to the right of my actual experience. Hopefully someday soon I'll find out.
Hmmm....interesting. I think i would rate meyself right in the middle...moving on up slowly.
abby
i'm a wimp. 2 or 3 at best but creeping up with time.
kk
HMm.. now this was interesting. i'd say i was around the same place as you.. about a 6.. or maybe a 7. It was a 2 before i met Master and i'm sure its going to go up even more over time.
btw, think you should do a Dom/me version of this too :P
OMG --
ok first -- I'm not sure if I'm honored or insulted to be used as an example
Imagine me stomping my foot and pounting "I am NOT a 2" -- and then I see og (who I think of as a 9 or 10 because sometimes I need a blanky after reading her blog
and Kelly Red -- (who's insane -- she has to be at least a 7 -- we've seen the photos Kelly)
and I'm thinking that 3 might be generous
hugs
but very very gentle ones that wouldn't hurt a fly
sfp
(oh -- my -- god - the word was "innjudd" - lolol)
sfp - me? A 9 or a 10? My goodness, I never imagined I was giving that impression. He hurts me very little, whether in frequency, duration, or intensity. He just can't risk it, or he would end up torturing me and severely beating me the way he does his masochist slave. You have no idea... Actually, I have no more than a speculative idea. And want no more than that. I'm not sure of my number, as I said, but put it pretty low. His slave would be around an 8 or 9, I suppose.
But isn't what really counts how much our reaction to the pain satisfies those who torment us? Don't we suffer for their pleasure rather than for a badge certifying how much we can tolerate? I used to feel horrible that I couldn't properly satisfy Daddy's sadistic needs. I wanted to be everything for him. But he has explained to me again and again that he gets such beautiful responses from the little he does allow himself to do that I shouldn't fret about not giving him enough..
Where are the negative numbers??
I never really thought about it like that...I guess I would put myself at a 2 or 3 lol.
Master and Mistress put me at a 4. They are both experienced tops and like to play heavy.
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