Letter To My Owner - Part 3

i started writing you this email to tell you how i felt. and then you came back.

"time to feed your sadist now" you said, and had me pull up my top and you put the clamps back on me. first on my right nipple, god so sore, making me want to cry. it felt like it was on wrong, must be on wrong because it was pinching me, hurting so much, but then when i put the other one on it did too, just so sore today, and you played at pulling the chain up and down. tighten it more, and more, pulling the loose end down 1/4 inch at a time to pull the other side up, more and more, now let it go, don't even think about it you said to me, just do it, and i did. so sore, time to feed the sadist.

now do it again. pull it.

eventually you let that one go, and then teased me with the other one, had me hold it there, near the other nipple, and then put it on, god it hurt so much, i wanted to beg you not to do it, but i don't, i just endure, there's no real chance of escape from the sadist when he's like that anyway, and then you teased me with it, taunted me maybe a better word, and it hurt so much already , made worse though in knowing it was going to get worse, you had me pull on the other clamps, and then let me put my fingers on my clit but it was 2% sex against 98% pain no way past it.

pull down your pants and get the big vibe you said so i did, and you let me put it on my clit and turn it on, and much to my surprise, and perhaps to yours too, it turned into sex, hot, trembling, still huge pain, you were focused on the pain, talking to me, the clamp twisted over as i bent over working the vibe, pulling my nipple down, hurting hurting,

and the vibration on my cunt, making me need to cum, knowing the pain would be immense when i came, not caring. it had been immense before anyway, i needed the escape of the sex, welcomed it, knew i would cum, could cum if you let me, and you said go ahead if i could, perhaps you didn't think i could get there, but i did almost immediately i think,

and the pain , god the pain was huge. and then did you put the loose clamp on my other nipple again? when i wanted and needed it off you stepped it up? hard to remember, just this impression of huge pain, unmanageable pain. doing because you told me to, but way beyond wanting to.

finally you let me take them off. i remember i was kind of surprised, maybe somehow i thought you would make me wear them forever? dumb huh? and then you dressed me and had me take the collar off and kiss it.

thank you Master for both of my cums. and for all your attention. And for making me feel as I've felt today. I freakin love you sooooo much.

i was afraid btw that someone would come home, it was getting very close to 230 and i was nervous , i had visions of them coming home and me scrambling to recover and hurting myself even more in the process.

so that's what i thought. oh - and when you told me to let go of the clamp, just let it go, without thinking of it, i did, just as you asked , and it flashed through my mind then that you could get me to do most anything just that way. just do it, don't think. no, of course i have limits but... I'm not sure where they are today

this email is two parts isn't it Sir? first part puppy and humiliation and submission and sweetness, eagerness.

second part darker, sadism, pain, enduring. knowing there is more. trying to offer, to submit, to want to give it, but getting harder.

Master, is there another kind of pain that would taste sweet to you that i could offer, as my nipples are getting so sore... obviously if it's my nipples you want, of course you must have them, but perhaps you have another taste as well or instead that I could offer that would sate some of your need?

Your submissive one