Service

Aisha asks if he could train me to want to scrub the bathroom.

I was talking about service and said that he wanted sex and pain, and that was what he had trained me to want. And I had used cleaning as an example of other kinds of service that were not required of me in our D/s relationship. So she asked if I thought he could train me to want to scrub the bathroom.

Yes, as unlikely as it sounds I think he could.

We don't live together. So it wouldn't be his bathroom I was cleaning. So it's hard to imagine he'd care. It wouldn't match up with any obsession of his to have his environment pristine and sparkling.

And I'm not a keen cleaner, not keen about any of the little housewifely tasks that need to be done again and again. My house is pretty clean, I have a cleaner who comes and does it for me. I don't hate doing bathrooms; at least they're small, and without much clutter, so the job is pretty contained. My real hate is floors. 

But here's the thing. It's not impossible that he could decide he wanted something like that done. Just for the power of it.

It's clear that he taught me to crave erotic pain. I didn't have much interest in it before him. But he claims the building blocks were there in me and he just brought it out. I don't know if that's true.

And I don't think the building blocks to make me love cleaning the bathroom are in me. I suppose there would be satisfaction in seeing the clean bathroom. But it seems to me that the question isn't about satisfaction in the product, it's about whether I could find satisfaction in the service.

I do think he could easily train me to like other kinds of pain at this point. His focus is usually my breasts. But I think he could attach the clamps and his attention to an earlobe or a finger or tongue and make that the focus of my service that that I could get a thrill that way. I think that spanking could give me that thrill. I think my association of pain with pleasure is pretty damn strong at this point and that it would be easy to transfer the feelings.

It would really be about knowing that he was pleased and approving. That would make it a good thing for me.

If he was turned on by it, by spanking or tongue pain or by me cleaning, I think he could train me to like it.

I think it would be about power at that point. I think he could be excited by his power to make me do something because he ordered it.  And I think he could make me like it. But it wouldn't be easy.

So if we imagine him saying "Sub, today I want to come home and find the bathroom sparkling. Do it for me," it wouldn't excite me.

Or even "today I want to spend the morning watching you scrub the bathroom," and it was his focus, and it turned him on...Okay, honestly I don't see it. I don't think it would give me that submissive high.

Add the French maid's outfit and ... then it turns into sex rather than cleaning right? 

But then... if it was bossy enough, humiliating enough, dark enough. I can imagine scenarios where it just might give me that high. Like living in some dark fantasy. Maybe. 

But just straight up cleaning as service as a turn on? Even when tied in with his approval and turn on? Well I want to say no. But really, I do think he could make me like just about anything so, maybe I am stuck on "no" because I simply can't imagine him getting turned on by it. Approving of it? Sure he would. He'd like it. He'd probably like it better if there was a benefit to him in it. So maybe it's just that I can't imagine his reaction to it.

What do you think? Do you get turned on by domestic service, either as the Dom or the sub? Could you? And if so, tell me what you feel, what the excitement is?