Sunday, February 26, 2012

Meditation

He found me balky last night, probably a bit sulky this morning.

He was... oh I had lots of complaints. All of them unvoiced but probably showing in my face, my attitude. I obeyed but I wasn't happy.

This morning he announces that I am to do a meditation. 12 minutes wearing the clover clamps and thinking about submission, pondering my submission to him.

It worked.

First I felt submissive. Obedient and submissive.

Pain but not excruciating.

A hint of sexuality.

Submission.

And sweetness.

Just what he would have wanted.

There's a part of me that sees that the balky is gone and is kind of shocked at how predictable I am, how easily he plays me. How he strips away the parts of me he doesn't want. Where's the bitterness now?

I'm sweet. Submissive. Girly. Pleasing. Easy.

5 comments:

Omega and mouse said...

Yes!!! Truly sin, this is something mouse understands.

Hugs,
mouse

Lily said...

Do you feel lighter and happier when this happens? I do. I often get stuck in a mood I don't truly want to be in and I appreciate the help getting out of it.

Florida Dom said...

Nice that you are sweet and submissive.

FD

aisha said...

Nice...

aisha

dancingbarez said...

I am not surprised it worked, I think most of us are predictable to our Master in this way. I think that's part of what makes this work. Glad you are out of your funk.