Stuff

I have time today, but what to write? Yes, I know I've been neglecting you here. I'm sorry. Some of it is busyness. I have been busy. Some of it is that it's hard to write in the little nooks and crannies around "busy". It takes a certain amount of peace I think for me to sit down and write something.

I did write something the other day. A task for Him. And I don't really want to post it here. He loved it but, it's really just a little love story that appeals to him because it's a sweet little love story about us. Or that's my thinking. I'm not terribly comfortable posting fiction anyway. I guess I'm simply not confident about it.

I owe him another writing assignment. Some of that will probably make it onto here when it's finished so don't give up hope. There might be smut and pain here eventually.

I've been writing a lot for work. And editing other people's stuff. I have several new people working for me. Two are great.The third - not so much. So I'm editing not just her expression of her idea but trying to shape the ideas too. It's tiring.

I have a writing assignment for work (sort of for work) that has been all done but the proof reading for 2 months. 2 months! Sigh. Why do I procrastinate? Ummm. Uncertainty? I really need firm deadlines.

But on another level work is exciting, challenging, and I'm hopeful in a way I haven't been there in a couple of years. So that's good. Honestly though, I really don't like managing people.

Other real life stuff? There's been lots of volunteer work. Lots of extended family stuff. Lots of community stuff. It's all good, but it takes tons of time and attention and energy doesn't it? 

I'm starting a class tonight, a one-on-one study. When I figure out what it's about I'll tell you. I'm looking forward to it.

My relationship with him is changing. I feel like it is maturing. He'll hate that word but I think it's true. I feel like we have been through some difficult times and met the challenges and conquered them. I feel like there is some acceptance, some peace between us.

We have less time right now, less privacy, and yet the intensity of the feelings is still there. There's passion and romance and desire and greed. I guess it's a good thing to always want more of each other?

Hmmm, maybe our relationship hasn't matured that much.