carpe diem

where to go now?

Sunday, December 28, 2008

I want to train for a half marathon and have been trying to run and really its pathetic. i cant believe i am as out of shape as i am. running for 20 minutes is hard, so hard and i sweat and strain and want to quit.

today i did 30 minutes, run walk, a slow pace, and wanted to quit pretty much the whole time after the first minute.

i look at training plans and despair. but i need a focus, a goal or i wont ever make myself do anything.

i need to lose about 25 pounds to really be able to run decently, i notice a real difference at that point, but i think that even 15 pounds would make a difference. god... who am i kidding, anything would help, but i keep going up and up and up


  1. Hi there :) Happy New Year!

    You commented on my blog--I would love to add you but I can't seem to find an e-mail address anywhere. (You can e-mail me at hisslt (at) if the blog is closed when you read this.)

    Good luck with dieting and the (half) marathon. The biggest motivation should be love I guess; love for who you are. Don't beat yourself up if you "mess up" a now and again, if you're angry with yourself you will probably only become bitter about the whole thing and end up rejecting it.
    I think you're doing a great job with the running-walking combination, you always have to start somewhere. Keep it up and soon you'll find yourself running for longer stretches of time!

  2. (I'm sorry for the error--it's still early for me!)

  3. Hi Slut, thanks for the encouragement. As you can likely tell I can use all I can get.